Hello everyone. Everyone still around. I’m trying so hard to get some writing done and to be creative at the level I once was but… it hasn’t been easy at all.

Forgive me for going off on a personal rant here for a few. I read and watch a lot from successful authors about the writing process, and most if not all of them mention that ideas need to come out in order to make way for new idea. I feel that this self reflection needs to be written in order to move myself onto other thoughts.

I have had a lot change in my life over the last few years and multiple times I thought I was feeling great. That would last a day or two and then gone. Do you know I had one year in which I had over 2000 posts on this site? Comics, wrestling, silly jokes, podcasts, links to other creators. I did a 24 hour blog-a-thon with 100 posts in one day. I’m not saying they were all something special. But I did it. I had a couple times when I felt on the cusp of breaking through to the next level and then something would change in life and I would have to back away from the computer for a time.

One of the things I have learned is that there is not one action. There is not one solution. Any person who wants to get better has to do multiple actions many times over a long long amount of time in order to see any sort of improvement.

My head hurts, my body hurts, stress and anxiety run roughshod through me. So I see a doctor, and therapist, and have prescriptions, and see friends whenever I can which isn’t as much as I would like. I try to exercise, but that piece to the self improvement puzzle has yet to lock in. All of that work left little energy to write. Even though I know deep down that writing would be another beneficial piece to that aforementioned puzzle.

I tried posting at the start of this year, and it’s crazy we’re almost at the end of 2025. I wrote a few things. I was experimenting with shorts on YouTube and TikTok. I had a good run for a month and then lost motivation and energy. I’ve been inspired and awake a few times during the year but that’s been so intermittent I couldn’t build anything off of it.

I graduated college in 2006. I started writing online in 2007. Which means I have two big 20 year anniversaries in front of me. That lack of motivation and energy hits again when I look at those dates. I should have more to show by now. Why even bother?

Why bother exercising? Why bother eating well? Why bother going out to socialise? Go to work, come home, turn on the TV, turn off the world. Rinse. Repeat. And I’ll be honest, that’s been a lot of days. Which only breeds more days like that. The most work I put into writing in the last year was for a comic writing contest. I didn’t win. But I wanted to try. I wanted to prove I could do it. I wanted to see my name. And that gave some motivation for awhile. But the couch is deep and enveloping.

I don’t share these thoughts for sympathy. I’m not letting the world know my issues for someone to knock on my door with a solution. I’m sharing in hopes that I can start the routine once again. As part of a complete all encompassing list of changes and betterment that are becoming habit.