Nearly Focused

I want to thank those of you who are following me along on this project. I have so much going on in my head, and writing is becoming a useful outlet enabling me to focus. That’s the funny thing though. I wrote “becoming” when really that is what writing has been all along, and what I need to get back to doing.

When I started writing online I was still living at home, working part time to full time hours, no kid, no girlfriend, and besides my own blog I was only on MySpace. Now I have my regular Monday to Friday full time career, my son whenever we can get together, my own place, access to every comic, movie, TV, anything I could possibly want and I’m also on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, YouTube, TikTok, Bluesky, and in one Discord and one Slack. And before the start of this year I was barely writing.

I have tried over and over again to focus and be less distracted. But as social media got bigger I spent more time on it. As much as I have said for years that I need to do better it still hasn’t happened. However, now between things happening in the world and my thoughts becoming focused thanks to daily writing, I’m realizing what I need to do. I have written numerous times that energy in needs to match energy out. And some of the social medias are no longer doing that for me. I am not getting enjoyment or engagement equal to time spent.

Also, this is just my current level for these apps. I’ve enjoyed them all in the past. And some of my friends love them and have great interactions with people they met through these apps. That is not what is happening for me though.

What made this even clearer was waking up one recent morning and there was no TikTok. No reason to scroll for an hour or so first thing in the morning. One more video, ok one more, ok this is it for sure, the one video that makes the rest of the time feel worth it. I checked what family and friends were up to on other apps, looked up any breaking news, and moved on with my day. It felt so good. Thus the secret was revealed to me. I can’t resist going on the app, but if the app is not working then I find more creative ways to spend my time that are not on my phone.

Throw in Twitter changing to X and you will not see me there much longer.

Twitter and TikTok will be gone as soon as I make sure anyone I really care about is someone I follow on one of the apps I’ll be keeping. As my thoughts continue to focus these personal rants will diminish and my own stories and pop culture posts will resume.

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