I did it! 

This new job is still very much new. Tonight there were call offs which demanded me doing a lot more by myself than I felt secure doing. 

But I did it. I sweated all night. Was horribly scared. Had a mini panic attack. When the time hit there was no way out of it but through it. 

I feel accomplished. I may be wearing shorts right now at home but inside I have my big boy pants on.