Hey guys, inspired by Reis at the Lair of the  Dork Horde and Brian over at Cool and Collected I’m going to try to do monthly updates.  Its a behind the scene look at the site and what’s happening.  This one is a bit emotional, and that’s what tipped me over from thinking about doing these into wanting to do them.

Warning, it will be a personal post so if you’re here for the funny books and the guys in tights there are over 3000 other articles you can read.

To the rest, thank you for staying.

So, the site has suffered immensely the past few months.  First of all, of course, was the wedding.  It was a glorious day and without a doubt the best day of my life so far.  A child may surpass it.  But so far its the greatest day of my life.  However, it was also the most stressful day of my life.  Shout outs to friends of the site Mandi Moss, William B West, Chad Nevett and I’m probably forgetting some other ones who also got married recently.  You can all attest to that fact.  The months of build up to the wedding are so demanding its tough to get anything else done.  Constant phone calls and trips and meetings and so much more.  Plus, the jobs which are providing the paychecks to support this have to still be done.  Then add to all of that, this site was in a way third down the list.  Wedding stuff, “day job” and then where I could find a moment of time, the site.

So we get past the wedding and its recovery time.  Start to build the nest egg back up.  Do all of the thank you cards.  Rearrange the house to accommodate any gifts and start to think about children.  While it is less difficult than the planning of the wedding, post wedding is still time consuming.

I just realized the previous two paragraphs both started with “so”.  Anyways, I’m just about to a regular schedule when my Grandfather dies.  He had been sick for the past three years since my Grandmother, his wife, died.  But that doesn’t make anything easier.  I didn’t do much for a week other than be there for my family.  I know I’m not emotionally or mentally over this yet.  Not that I’m coming here for sympathy.  And there are certainly other people out there who have been through worse.  However, this is my blog and my words and it sucks.  All I want to do is quit my job and go spend more time with my family.  But the real world just doesn’t work that way does it?

It means so much that I have others who contribute to this site.   I love them all dearly for it.

All of this leads me to, well, an apology.  Team Hellions is my heart and soul.  I don’t want to work retail, I don’t want to be an old man running a cash register or stocking shelves, unless I own that register.  I want to have my name in that upper corner under the comic book company’s banner along with the name of the penciler, inker, colorist and letterer who have helped me achieve my dream.  I want Team Hellions to be mentioned in the same breath as io9, Aint It Cool, CBR, Topless Robot and that upper echelon of geek blogs.

I thank you all for helping me with this.  My readers, my friends, my fans, my fellow writers.  I couldn’t do any of this without each and every one of you.  I’m here.  Its a tough month, and a crazy year.  But I am not going away.  I wont let this site sink when it is so close to becoming that which I have wished and worked towards for years.

Thank you all for letting me get this off my chest.  There are those who have had much worse years than I though.  In closing, lets do some good from this rant.  JK Woodward is a good friend of our friends at Pete’s Basement and he lost everything in Hurricane Sandy.  If you would like to help him, or anyone else who’s hurting from this disaster check out the link below:

http://jkwoodwardart.blogspot.com/

http://www.redcross.org/index.jsp